Wedding Anniversary
Sep. 8th, 2012 05:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelofmusic21Today I would have been married for eight years.
Whoever said time heals all had to be smoking crack because the pain of losing Jim has never gone away. I still feel it as strongly now as I did the day he was taken from me. It's been almost eight years and still it hurts. My heart aches at times for what I used to have.
I sometimes find myself asking if he would like the person that I have become. I'd hope so but I don't like myself at times. Would he be proud of me for the steps i have made to improve my life? i have changed so much since his death. Jim loved me for the person I was when he was alive. It didn't matter what I wanted to do he was always there to support it.
I remember when i got my job as a bill collector he was so happy for me. He knew i wanted to work. I'm pretty sure he'd be much happier with my job I have now I must admit. :P. I myself am much happier doing what I do now. I'll never go back to bill collections as long as I live. Those were some horrid days.
One of my fondest memories of him that i have is, there was one day I was sitting in the bath tub and I was singing. I often sing in the shower or bath, lol. Jim was asleep so I was trying not to wake him. He came in to the bathroom and I told him I was sorry if I had awakened him. He replied with "you didn't wake me up, i woke up because i heard an angel singing in here." It was very sweet. I probably blushed ten million shades of red but it was sweet all the same. He had always wanted me to make a CD of myself but it wasn't till after his death that my first one was complete. I wish I could have finished one while he was still alive. I like to think he can hear me singing now.
I still miss him terribly and it's days like this when i think of him the most. Today we said "I do" and on September 11 he left this worl for the next great adventure. i know he's watching me from where ever he is. He' was my angel here, and he's my angel now. Jim is gone but never forgotten. He will always carry a place in my heart. No matter what I do or where I end up, he will always be there.
Well, going to go and help with dinner plans so i'm off for now, but before i go I just wanted to say that no matter what, don't miss the chance to tell the one you love that you love them. Hold them close because none of us are promised tomorrow.
I love you all.
<3hugs and kisses<3
Lily
Whoever said time heals all had to be smoking crack because the pain of losing Jim has never gone away. I still feel it as strongly now as I did the day he was taken from me. It's been almost eight years and still it hurts. My heart aches at times for what I used to have.
I sometimes find myself asking if he would like the person that I have become. I'd hope so but I don't like myself at times. Would he be proud of me for the steps i have made to improve my life? i have changed so much since his death. Jim loved me for the person I was when he was alive. It didn't matter what I wanted to do he was always there to support it.
I remember when i got my job as a bill collector he was so happy for me. He knew i wanted to work. I'm pretty sure he'd be much happier with my job I have now I must admit. :P. I myself am much happier doing what I do now. I'll never go back to bill collections as long as I live. Those were some horrid days.
One of my fondest memories of him that i have is, there was one day I was sitting in the bath tub and I was singing. I often sing in the shower or bath, lol. Jim was asleep so I was trying not to wake him. He came in to the bathroom and I told him I was sorry if I had awakened him. He replied with "you didn't wake me up, i woke up because i heard an angel singing in here." It was very sweet. I probably blushed ten million shades of red but it was sweet all the same. He had always wanted me to make a CD of myself but it wasn't till after his death that my first one was complete. I wish I could have finished one while he was still alive. I like to think he can hear me singing now.
I still miss him terribly and it's days like this when i think of him the most. Today we said "I do" and on September 11 he left this worl for the next great adventure. i know he's watching me from where ever he is. He' was my angel here, and he's my angel now. Jim is gone but never forgotten. He will always carry a place in my heart. No matter what I do or where I end up, he will always be there.
Well, going to go and help with dinner plans so i'm off for now, but before i go I just wanted to say that no matter what, don't miss the chance to tell the one you love that you love them. Hold them close because none of us are promised tomorrow.
I love you all.
<3hugs and kisses<3
Lily
