Jim's Favorite Techno Song

I was looking back on some of my older entries from a much older journal. It was a journal that i had from 2004. It was extremely painful to read as it covered a lot of Jim's last few months and days of his life. While reading however I came across an entry where i had posted the lyrics to Jim's favorite techno song. It was called Time Of Our Lives by Paul Van Dyk. At the time I couldn't understand why it was his favorite one. Don't get me wrong, Jim liked most techno accept for trance, but for some reason that was his favorite. It took me 7 years but I do believe after reading that particular entry I now know why it was so. If I know Jim like i do believe I do, then I am thinking I'm correct in my thinking.

Time Of Our Lives :: Paul Van Dyk

Genre: Dance

there's a time for us to let go
there's a time for holding on
a time to speak, a time to listen
there's a time for us to go
there's a time for laying low-down
there's a time for getting high
a time for peace, a time for fighting
a time to live a time to die

a time to scream, a time for silence
a time for truth, against the lies
a time for faith, a time for science
there's a time for us to shine
there is a time for explaining
there's a time to understand
a time for hurt, a time for healing
time to run to make a stand

oh, this is the time of our lives X4

Jim believed that life had a purpose. He believed that there was a time for everything and a reason. The only thing he didn't understand was why, why did him getting cancer and having to leave this world and me have to happen. He didn't believe in God but he did believe in a higher power. His higher power just happened to be Jonathan Davis from Korn. But I digress as I find myself doing a lot these days. Jim had so much happen in his life that this song would only make sense for him to have as his favorite.
The lines from the song that stand out most in my mind are these...I have rearranged them to fit the order of things in my mind.
"There's a time to scream, a time for silence." "A time for holding on." "There's a time for letting go." "A time to live, a time to die." And finally, "A time for hurt, a time for healing."
I believe that These lines fit the way Jim was feeling. To scream, to hold on, to hurt, to let go and then finally acceptence of death, a time to die.
For me, A time to scream, a time to hold on, a time to hurt, a time for silence, a time for healing and a time to live, in that order I think is what i take from this song. i realize that there's a time for everything as well and that I will never have the answers to why things happen but that song makes a lot more sense to me now. I thank Jim that he introduced me to that song. Jim is loved, missed and will never be forgotten. He will always have a place in my heart no matter what.

I'm sorry for the sad entry but I felt that it had to be written, it's good therapy for me. I know it's been almost 7 years but the pain of him passing is always there, time heals all but it never fully takes the pain away. Yes i can go on and I do but in my mind, he's always there.

Lily

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Just To Warn You

To all my readers.

I come to you with a warning. I know this sounds ominous but I need to warn you all about a guy going by king cobra. I have no idea who he is and have never heard of him before today. I've never spoken with the dude and I'm not even sure how he got my e-mail address. If any of you get an e-mail from a cobra915@gmail.com don't read it! The guys a total creep!
This is what the e-mail said...

"Hey, would you like to sell me your panties?"

That was all it said. I think that's creepy. I almost wanted to respond to him and tell him to take his fetish elsewhere but I figured that would only give him more fuel to keep messageing me so instead, I blocked him from being able to send me anymore messages. I don't have any issues with people having fetishes however, leave me out of it. I mean i have some of my own but still, I don't involve others in them. And there's no way in hell I'm going to sell some strange dude my panties. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarg! Creepy dudes.

Ok, I'm off, just wanted to come back and give you guys a heads up in case you get a message from that e-mail address.

Lily

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