Anger & Sadness
Aug. 18th, 2012 02:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelofmusic21To my readers.
I have tried very hard to keep my anger out of the public eye but I can no longer do it. I made a promise to myself that I would not write about anything that makes me angry but I should have never made that promise because I should have known that I wouldn't be able to keep it. This is my journal and if you don't wish to read this entry I'd advise you to stop now. I'm not a very happy lily. Now having said this, entry continues.
Can someone tell me how the hell someone can doubt the validity of your husband dieing? I saw how it happened! You weren't there, you weren't by his bedside! I was! I watched in sadness as he took off his oxygen mask because he had decided that he was to tired to fight any longer! I held his hand as he passed! I was with him as he took his last breaths! I saw it happen! You weren't there! I'd never take a cheap shot like that against you with your mother dieing! What you said was about as bad as a friend of mine's roommate saying that I was probably half responsible for jim's death because i"m wiccan. You have hurt me deeply and for now I can honestly say I can not ever forgive you for this one. Any secrets you may have told me I will still keep with me till the day i die, why? The answer is simple, I'm not the type of person to go revealing things when asked not to no matter how i'm treated by someone. I'm done! Have a nice life! No love, Lily.
Rant over reguarding this, no more really needs to be said.
I can't believe that someone would stoop this low. Yes i have made some big huge mistakes in my past that have come to light and have admitted my wrongs. If people would/could leave my past where it belongs...but oh no...I'm the big bad person now because of my past mistakes. My mistakes happend years ago and why they can't stay in the past is beyond me. To said person who decided to bring up my past again? You are not innocent! I know things that could damage your reputation. I won't but just know that i could. I'm not the same person I was back then. I have grown up a lot and have changed since then.
I have not revealed names here because the persons responsible for this rant are not important, they know who they are. I know they will read this probably and think of all sorts of nasty things to say and that's ok. Let's just say though, I know who my true friends really are.
I'm sorry if you think this entry is/was dramatic but even i need to rant at times. i can't be the happy person I'm always expected to be. I've got feelings too afterall.
I do not wish harm on either one of these two persons either. I truely hope they are happy and that they won't find the need to hurt others just because of their lives being messed up or things aren't going the way they are supposed to for them.
To those who choose to remain friends with me after reading this, thank you. You don't know how much you mean to me. i treasure you all and will continue to do so. To those who choose to judge and talk behind my back, I wish you nothing but happiness in your endeavors.
Untill next time, hopefully it will be a much happier entry.
<3Hugs and love<3
Lily
I have tried very hard to keep my anger out of the public eye but I can no longer do it. I made a promise to myself that I would not write about anything that makes me angry but I should have never made that promise because I should have known that I wouldn't be able to keep it. This is my journal and if you don't wish to read this entry I'd advise you to stop now. I'm not a very happy lily. Now having said this, entry continues.
Can someone tell me how the hell someone can doubt the validity of your husband dieing? I saw how it happened! You weren't there, you weren't by his bedside! I was! I watched in sadness as he took off his oxygen mask because he had decided that he was to tired to fight any longer! I held his hand as he passed! I was with him as he took his last breaths! I saw it happen! You weren't there! I'd never take a cheap shot like that against you with your mother dieing! What you said was about as bad as a friend of mine's roommate saying that I was probably half responsible for jim's death because i"m wiccan. You have hurt me deeply and for now I can honestly say I can not ever forgive you for this one. Any secrets you may have told me I will still keep with me till the day i die, why? The answer is simple, I'm not the type of person to go revealing things when asked not to no matter how i'm treated by someone. I'm done! Have a nice life! No love, Lily.
Rant over reguarding this, no more really needs to be said.
I can't believe that someone would stoop this low. Yes i have made some big huge mistakes in my past that have come to light and have admitted my wrongs. If people would/could leave my past where it belongs...but oh no...I'm the big bad person now because of my past mistakes. My mistakes happend years ago and why they can't stay in the past is beyond me. To said person who decided to bring up my past again? You are not innocent! I know things that could damage your reputation. I won't but just know that i could. I'm not the same person I was back then. I have grown up a lot and have changed since then.
I have not revealed names here because the persons responsible for this rant are not important, they know who they are. I know they will read this probably and think of all sorts of nasty things to say and that's ok. Let's just say though, I know who my true friends really are.
I'm sorry if you think this entry is/was dramatic but even i need to rant at times. i can't be the happy person I'm always expected to be. I've got feelings too afterall.
I do not wish harm on either one of these two persons either. I truely hope they are happy and that they won't find the need to hurt others just because of their lives being messed up or things aren't going the way they are supposed to for them.
To those who choose to remain friends with me after reading this, thank you. You don't know how much you mean to me. i treasure you all and will continue to do so. To those who choose to judge and talk behind my back, I wish you nothing but happiness in your endeavors.
Untill next time, hopefully it will be a much happier entry.
<3Hugs and love<3
Lily
